De-cluttering the mind

I hate quitting more than I hate the fear of the unknown. I feel we are floating in a fog, unsure of even where we are or whether there is an amazing tropical oasis or a giant scary monster lurking just beyond our reach, or just miles and miles of the cold, dark ocean. For weeks the only answer to my prayers for direction are to focus on my family and cleaning the house. Just as I'm finding things around the house to sell, re-purpose, donate, and Mike is following leads he has been too busy to pursue. He seems to be extremely distracted and not present when we are in this situation while I am too heavy into it alone. We finally had a breakthrough last night, just settling into being present together in our reality. And we started today with me finding that Quickbooks is free after a rebate which we've been needing for ages and Mike is going to do trade work for our gym membership. Our house feels beautiful and new just not being so cluttered. I know our busiest season is just around the corner, but that also everyone is struggling and the best we can do to survive is to just keep doing what we feel we ought to be doing and to not be afraid. And to take this time of floating in a boat to enjoy each other. Because I can't imagine being here alone.